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I Don’t Want to Be Just a Memory

Ich will nicht nur eine Erinnerung sein
Forum Expanded 2024
© Nordic Media House
Fellow members of the Berlin queer community mourn together the loss of their dead friends due to substance abuse and the mental health crisis as well as the loss of urban safe spaces in general. By sharing personal materials, stories, and honest criticism about the club scene, working on this film becomes a means of healing for this group of friends. Resembling glow-in-the-dark fungi, they radiate light together as a network of support and care, they transform dead bodies and memories into a collective structure that sustains future living.

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by Sarnt Utamachote (Director, Screenplay), Kareem Baholzer (Screenplay)
with marum, René Bertune, Andre Fau, Katharina „Tinka“ Frommann, RTALIN, Andrei Mihu, Diana Kleimenova, Bráulio Bandeira Germany 2024 English, Spanish 20' World premiere | Documentary form

With

  • marum
  • René Bertune
  • Andre Fau
  • Katharina „Tinka“ Frommann
  • RTALIN
  • Andrei Mihu
  • Diana Kleimenova
  • Bráulio Bandeira

Crew

Director Sarnt Utamachote
Screenplay Kareem Baholzer, Sarnt Utamachote
Cinematography Julian Curico
Editing Ygor Gama, Sarnt Utamachote
Music Kei Watanabe, Bráulio Bandeira Deepneue
Sound Design Pussy Ranz
Sound Dr Rey U70 Studio
Producers Klaus Salminen, Sarnt Utamachote

World Sales

Raina Film Festival Distribution

Helsinki, Finland

Produced by

Nordic Media House

Berlin, Germany

Photos

Sarnt Utamachote

© Sarnt Utamachote

Sarnt Utamachote is a Southeast Asian nonbinary filmmaker and curator based in Berlin. They believe that cinema can be a tool for social engagement and collective healing. They are a co-founder of un.thai.tled, an artist collective from the German-Thai diaspora, and have curated multiple research-based exhibitions concerning postcolonial histories, the Southeast Asian diaspora, and activism in divided Germany (GDR/FRG). They work as a film programmer at XPOSED Queer Film Festival Berlin, Hamburg International Short Film Festival, and at Sİnema Transtopia Berlin.

Filmography (selection)

2020 I Am Not Your Mother; video installation, 14 min. · Soy Sauce; 5 min. 2022 Sonic Reverbs; 22 min. 2024 I Don’t Want to Be Just a Memory

Bio- & filmography as of Berlinale 2024