I left Lebanon in 2006. For the past 10 years I have lived in seven countries, 10 cities, and 21 homes. I have slept in 21 beds, cooked in 21 kitchens, cleaned 21 bathrooms, written on 21 desks, and locked 21 doors behind me. I packed all of my life into two suitcases and a backpack. The rest stayed behind. Somebody somewhere uses my bed, somebody somewhere has my shoes, somebody somewhere maybe remembers me in those fragmented traces of mine.
I was there. But now I am here. In Qatar. In a fake Venice with colorful houses.
Houses have memories too. They hide them under their windowsills, tuck them in layers of paint and sometimes whisper them to birds passing by. I wonder whose memories these houses will keep. I live here but I am unable to leave a trace. I try to attach myself to the walls, dirty them, mark them… but I fail. They are constantly cleaned, watched, and protected. I caress them instead. And I film them, lest I forget.
Home is where the heart is, they say. I disagree. My heart is everywhere. It left with the music. Like a turtle, I am always home.
Qatar / Lebanon 2016
12 min · Colour
Rawane Nassif, born in 1983 in Beirut, Lebanon, has a BFA in filmmaking from Université Saint Joseph in Lebanon and an MA in Cultural Anthropology from the University of Alberta in Canada. She is a filmmaker, author and researcher. Her work addresses space, traditions, identities, displacement, and memory. She currently works with the Doha Film Institute as a film researcher.Filmography
2002 Draw Me Palestine; 2 min. 2004 Leaded Unleaded; 35 min. · Serheldan; 18 min. · Dalil; 18 min. · On the Road; 18 min. 2005 My Ball; 18 min. 2007 No Coke; 2 min. · Bike Love; 15 min. 2009 Zoukak Migration; 32 min. 2012 Three Women in the Jailoo; 31 min. 2016 Sokun Al Sulhufat
Rawane NassifBeirut, Lebanon